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My Grandmother’s Brogue

My grandmother hid her brogue
the way I insert R’s
where they used to not exist
in a Rebel South
where folks say “y’all”
and I say “you guys”
when I let down my guard

My grandmother couldn’t hide
her Irish temper
She taught it to my father
who thought its harshness
would make us stronger
But as he got older he learned
that oppression breeds poverty
and poverty brutality

How well we hide
our wounds
constrict our throats
to muffle grief
in every language

“It was for my own good”
“I turned out all right” we say
In a big hole it all goes

We used to think if we dug far enough
we’d get to China
As if we wouldn’t come across
all manner of corpses and treasure
As if we could disregard our own family trauma

My Grandmother came to America
to be a servant
and then have 11 children
for the Catholic Church
“Jesus, Mary and Joseph!”

I used to think a brogue was a brooch
a shiny pin I could proudly wear
that would restore me to my rightful status

“Don’t shine too bright
You’ll attract the thieves
The neighbors will think you’re uppity
and surely it’s a sin”
was the family inheritance I received

So we hide what is most valuable
along with what is shameful
and after a while we don’t
know the difference
between our corpses and our treasures
our brogues and brooches

In a big hole it all goes
But it never goes away

My Grandmother’s brogue
grows green in my throat
because what we bury takes root

________Colleen Redman, written around 20000 / Poets United

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